Living with long covid is a journey of emotional ups and downs. Here are two examples:
The Light
11th March 2024
This was the second doodle that I was able to do. Playing with 3 bright, light colours, reflecting the fact that I was able to get up, go downstairs, sit on the sofa and draw. Finding joy in the process. I set a timer for 10 mins to make sure I didn’t overdo it, then rested lying down before doing a bit more. It’s only small, but because I could only work on it for 10 minutes at a time it took 3 days to finish.
The Dark
13th January 2024.
Still pretty much bedbound. I wrote in my diary
‘Just getting worse, not better. This illness just takes and takes, life shrinks, joy is leached away’.
Followed by:
Again and again
I hit rock bottom,
only to find
the ground gives way
and I
keep
falling.
Immediately after I wrote this I felt emotional, and then I felt a bit better. I realised it was only half the story, so I wrote another verse.
Again and again
I hit rock bottom,
only to find
the ground gives way
and I
keep
falling.And yet
each time I fall,
something tenacious in me
reaches out,
takes my hand,
eases me gently
back
towards
the light.
This is lovely and poignant, Sarah. To me it speaks to hope and to the power of resilience.
And, too, may the bottom stop dropping out for you.
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Thanks Riba 😊
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The light is always there but sometimes the darkness stops us seeing it, I’m glad that you’re able to still find the light.
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Thanks Andrea…sorry, missed your comment! 😊
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